God’s terrible insistence on human freedom is so absolute that He granted us the power to live as though He does not exist. Philip Yancey.
I read that in Our Daily Bread last week and thought of it again reading Isaiah 46 this week...
I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say: My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please. Isa 46:10
I am still wrestling with the Sovereignty of God and human freedom and how they interplay. I am beginning to see that more often than not, I want God to grant me freedom, and then be Sovereign in those areas where I think He should.
Is this a common human struggle? Everyone else seems to have their act together. I still struggle to understand, to obey, to trust, to love the way I should. For now, in my weakness, I find I just say, do what You think is best in my life and help my unbelief. I often think of the man who said, Lord, if your willing... I try not to think of that too much. There are other reasons I suppose why God does not act, sin in my life, disobedience, lessons I need to learn, patience to be developed, but still, one would love to see clear, obvious, unmistakable , irrefutable answers to specific prayers. I guess I am not so much doubting as worrying... I guess fretting is still a sin, but I never realized what a worrier I am... My fellow small groupers say it's because I am controlling. I guess I am. That's something else I didn't really recognize till this last few months.... I mean, not really realized, like I am starting to...
Well, TRUTH... what can I hang onto in all my doubts and struggles? God is in control (I may not always like it or agree - but He's bigger and smarter than me by immeasurable contrast) God loves me. The Bible says so, the cross says so. He will never leave me. Life is short and heaven is forever. There is grace available to me for even the problem of doubt, if only I will accept it... My mind will be kept in perfect peace, if it is fixed on God...
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