Tonight we had an awesome discussion at our small group about the available power that exists for those who will serious with God.
I feel like something deep inside me stirred awake... I recognize anew that there cannot be any compromise. What I have written here about being a disciple, about starting over, using my moments for God and so on... none of it is worth anything if I'm willing to admit any compromise. I know that there are, have been, un-surrendered parts of me...
Those parts of me must be crucified with Christ... I can no longer live... not as me anyhow, it must be Christ who lives in me, through me...
I am searching, God I'm asking you to search me, my listening habits, my movies, my web habits, my friendships, my books, my hobbies... what must be purged? What needs to be stripped away to make room for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit that I long for?
I do not want to be content with a small existence, taken up with menial interests... Have I been asleep for so long? I don't want to fall back to sleep...